Whatever

Better do a bit more blogging as have tailed off since Sunday. Trouble is that it's difficult to get to the Internet everyday, and I certainly can't when I am home, which will be next weekend again, good. I get the idea of writing every day, and I do, technology is the problem. Perhaps I should invest in a laptop. I'm concerned though, maybe too much about money. Every penny is accounted for. Clothes, one of my favourite things to shop for, and a great comfort, have not been bought since the end of August, this is bad! Definitely feeling the pressure to be stylish here, I feel I am failing.
Not the best of days today, not sure why, just odd things. The radio writing was good. The bloc meeting I'm unsure about, still don't feel I know what I'm doing I am working with someone, maybe I need to be more active and get together to discuss our role. I also felt very disappointed today when someone revealed they are setting up a theatre group, this was someone I had been talking to about doing this very thing. But there's no room now for anyone else in this person's management team so tough. I felt like I used to in school when one of my best friends wasn't being friends with me anymore, she would go and form clubs with other children, that could only have four members, and I would be the fifth. I guess I could just set up my own company of course, in rivalry, or would that be petty? I'm still not good at being active.
What was useful was the student rep meeting, I feel I'm doing something good there. And I helped someone (I think) with suggestions for writing something today, that felt good. Maybe after all I am destined to be a teacher?! I'm still worrying about the course, perhaps I need to make decisions. Too much unsureness about everything I fear at the moment.